An attempt to Resurrect!!!

Caught between the tough times and equally tough people..
Sometimes i question myself..

Am i too naive..too brittle to handle..
Am i too focused or gone out of the loop..
Am i saturated or still the glass is half empty or else half full?

Change at times is required..but it can't necessarily be the permanent element of life..

Having pushed my boundaries..
Having tried to attempt something new..
Coming across the different colors of world..

I tried to familiarize myself with what was missing in me..



But now..

I can feel the pressure..
Pressure deep down..
A call from my roots..

To where I belong..
With all synonymity..

And..suddenly i feel alienated in this unknown zone..


That smile which gives a green beautiful signal to my day..Mom..
Since i have missed that all this time..happiness seems more of a stranger to me!!!

A support..a friendship..a confidant..a person who mirrors my being..Sister..
Definitions of these words seem to have changed since you epitomize their purity.

A sweet n sour relationship rendering guard and all affection to my life..Dear Brothers..
Having missed that..i feel astray!..

And above all..a feeling which completes me as a person..

A feeling of being at HOME!!!


Its time..
Its time to fit in my place..to restore happiness..to be what I was!!!

P.S..Now that i know where I belong, the journey will be easier..

FlashBack!!!

Peekaboo..


The very first post of this year is dedicated to all those people who have left an impression in my life since the time i met them in this professional journey.

Its exclusively dedicated to my team mates and my mentors out there in Pune.

A bit off the track but not the one to be missed out on..


Corporate world..

Something characterized by backstabbing..planning..politics..favors..spoon feeding..flattery and what not.

I don't disagree on these various flavors of our typical IT industry but somehow i came across some different perceptions and altogether different mindsets.


And its confined to a place which has made that special place in my life for making me what I am today.

Pune..East Oxford..rightly named so.

An extra sober city with classic lifestyle garnished by quality people..that's what its all about.

Kicked off mt IT career with this place and explored my various sides which were hidden up till now in some of the darkest corners of my individuality.

With each day i learned,,,earned and became a better individual than i was earlier(no doubt i became extra lean;-))


And somehow overly shy being of mine confronted its upbeat form for the very first time..

Pune it was..my favorite and it will continue to be.


And in this journey i made some quality friends with whom i found an easy connect and a respect within.

Selfless characters have always attracted my fondness and i found a bunch there.

Today i stand at a point wherein no doubt the # of my friends stays limited but the quality within is unfathomable..can't even be gauged and
thats what makes me happy and satisfied to acknowledge myself as a good friend.

This much would be enough to qualify the impact and the place Pune has in my life that instead of being from a far far state i love to say..JAI MAHARASHTRA!!!

P.S--Some things are surreal and stay with you for an entire lifetime no matter where u are!!!

A year that was...2013

and here is a big bye to the the year which was in itself a mixed bag of happenings but primarily not the best outa the lot!!



I witnessed some of the most beautiful moments of my life which will be dear to me throughout this journey.

Laughed, cried, sulked, sobbed...no emotion was missed and yes I realised that it has been some time now since I have grown up..thoda sa hi sahi.


Given new dimensions, things do behave differently..

I did not know this but as they say better late than never..i finally understood this!!


A parody of months..zillions of moments..what else..


Jan..Feb..Mar..Dear onsetters..i have no grudges from you..you were outstanding!!!

April..May..June..Dear mid quarter..you were the best..

I had some of the best experiences in these months which made me happy like never before and built in the confidence inside me.

But as they say..nothing lasts forever..

July..Aug..not so good..not so bad..dearies..you can be ignored..

September..the game changer!!!

In a way this month, changed the course of my outlook towards people and myself.

I never visualised things from different angles though it was needed and as such i perceived them in my way which made nothing seem harmful and unreal to me.

But a stone can be either a stepping one or stumbling one and in both cases, you go off the track to discover something new..so did I.


Wake me up when September ends han!!!


October...

November..dull enough

December..
and last month was some relief..

Spent some quality time with my mom which rejuvenated this being of mine.


My lifespan-1...bye bye 2013


Dumping all the negative energies and thoughts in your fading shadows..Im stepping forward with lots of expectations from 2014 as it equals #7!!!

Get..Set..and Gooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

Impromptu Lesson By Salman Khan!!!

I have never been that BHAI aka Salman fan since i belong to his counter part fan club..yes, rightly guessed a hard core SRK fan..
and why not to be..apart from being KING OF HEARTS, SRK is that hub of intelligence and well built scholarish mind..


But my subject today is not to display the greatness and charm of my favorite actor but something that was a random thought from Salman yet it caught my attention..so much so that, this post is all about that one line.


Day: Sunday
Channel: Star World.
Show: Coffee With Karan.

So, on 1st December, this great "Coffee flavored" show premiered its 6th season and to everyone's surprise Salman Khan was the first to be aired..


Well..eyebrows raised..skeptical opinions..blah blah..that's what media spiced it up with, but I will be keeping it simple enough.



Casual enough..witty answers..confronting every question..confusing the host himself..talking about his rivals..etc etc, Salman was at his best that i have ever witnessed in my entire lifetime.

And a segment with Salman's father was that icing on the cake which made everyone realise that even the biggest of stars maintain that "offspring" character in front of their parents..rightly portrayed by Bhai..


The conversation went on and on and suddenly this particular piece of conversation caught my already stiff attention:

"Mere andar abhi bhi wo purana salman hai..i miss him..lekin use andar hi rakhta hu main..bahar nahi laata..this part of me is Boring"

And yes i found a connect with it..


Truly said Mr.Khan..

There are lot of us, who for the sake of matching the contemporary trends and needs, keep the real part of their nature inside, buried deep down..but they forget that its a part of
their being, their existence and a part of their recognition.

Agreed that in this world of high-end, brutal competition, we need to pull up our socks and bring out the best in us, but in that struggle forgetting our basic instincts and interests is nowhere justified
for I have realized happiness is an innate feeling..you just can't force yourself to be happy..

With the flow of life, lets just not make our real dreams and ambitions go waste but instead work towards them, bring them forth in the front seat and give ourselves a chance to take the charge..


One Life..
Infinite Dreams..
Billions of Encounters..
One Hit..
And there You go..


PS: This coffee had a blend of hidden "BEING HUMAN" flavors in it!!!

Now And Then!!!

A look at the year "dusking" its end!!

A somewhat proactive attempt but nevertheless too early..

I really cant sum up what this year has given me  or to be precise has deprived me of.

2K13 was one of those "not so wannabe years" wherein i found myself typically helpless in the hands of time.

Not squandering my "Never Say Die" attitude, i tried giving it my best shot, being all that I am, believing in tomorrow
and somehow marching ahead but then you can win a battle with anyone except for the one wherein you have to confront your own self and nothing is hidden#Unavoidable.


The first half seemed natural, modest without any melodrama or halts, a somewhat smooth flow of life with nothing to waste thoughts and energy on.
it would be better to state it as the best time of the year where I was in my comfort zone..confident enough to play with Life and resort to my own beliefs and perceptions.

I had no complaints..not a nano fraction of regret or hurt..see i was HAPPY!!!

But things can never be same..Courtesy---TIME#a big Ruler


A change of place marked the beginning of 2nd half to much of a mixed emotion..never did i know what it will turn me into#Delirious

Never did i frame any conviction about any happening but that was so imbecile of me.

It may be queer enough to say that now i realize somehow i have been out of my brains at quite a number of instances, and topping it up was the decision to move to a new place#Regret

Dimwit..the changes were obscure but not for so long until i came to my senses to realize that "No one can hurt You more than your own self"

No..I ain't any melancholy narrator of events but just bringing into words the experience i never had.

At times i felt like a good for nothing homo-sapien and someone who never saw any bad in any freaking thing#Monotonous-Vision.


Just more than a month left for this year to end but out of nothing, it gave me something which i was lacking big time; an ability to elongate the analysis phase and come to conclusion only after things
have qualified themselves for development phase#SDLC-Impact.


Wrapping it up at a note wherein a GUY who happens to be my clandestine love though i never confessed, lately taught me that "expect nothing even from yourself MINZA"..and I'm taking it forward from here.

Love You BIG-B, #Officially-Announced!!!

P.S..BIG B is my elder brother, my Father, My feel good sibling!!!

Eliminating Cliche!!!

            "In an unending fight between heart and mind, i seem to be a mere spectator#Confused"

When people lash out at their two important "organs" for existence, im really surprised as to how they are able
to give lead to either of them and pacify the other..Confusing..ain't it??

The dilemma seems unsurmountable but yet again we have a clear winner at the end..either the mind..or the heart!!!


The four chambered entity is too fragile to handle since it is laden with innumberable emotions and feelings where as the mind
everytime portrays its tough being..the grey matter..or the white matter..the intelligence hub(BRAIN) renders strength to it
every moment!!


And in my case, brain has an edge#Truth


Heart laments for things to go in its stride, whereas the BRAIN lists down the pros and cons of every freaking aspect of any issue leaving you aghast to elude
anything*sigh*



Ignorance is bliss sometimes..a blessing in disguise!!!



And then once in a blue moon, we tend to come across a situation where heart and mind are so much in harmony that deciding something seems a petty cake walk
but such instances are so rare..

The purpose of writing this post is to bring forth the confusions and continuous struggle within oneself which goes on inside us without creating any havoc or
making its presence felt but just that..confined to ourselves..

Whose side to take is completely..Your Call!!!

P.S--Within our own confusions, we find a way through!

Just Saying!!!

Some weird thoughts need ESCAPE VELOCITY to trash out from the GRAVITY of our mind!!!

where

G=Gravity developed in our brains(varies from person to person)
M=Mass of the thoughts to be flushed out(weighed by complexity of situation)
R=Resistance to overcome the trash...




P.S:
Lately i have developed that Scheldon Cooper effect(courtesy BIG BANG THEORY)!!!