Friday 8 November 2013

Now And Then!!!

A look at the year "dusking" its end!!

A somewhat proactive attempt but nevertheless too early..

I really cant sum up what this year has given me  or to be precise has deprived me of.

2K13 was one of those "not so wannabe years" wherein i found myself typically helpless in the hands of time.

Not squandering my "Never Say Die" attitude, i tried giving it my best shot, being all that I am, believing in tomorrow
and somehow marching ahead but then you can win a battle with anyone except for the one wherein you have to confront your own self and nothing is hidden#Unavoidable.


The first half seemed natural, modest without any melodrama or halts, a somewhat smooth flow of life with nothing to waste thoughts and energy on.
it would be better to state it as the best time of the year where I was in my comfort zone..confident enough to play with Life and resort to my own beliefs and perceptions.

I had no complaints..not a nano fraction of regret or hurt..see i was HAPPY!!!

But things can never be same..Courtesy---TIME#a big Ruler


A change of place marked the beginning of 2nd half to much of a mixed emotion..never did i know what it will turn me into#Delirious

Never did i frame any conviction about any happening but that was so imbecile of me.

It may be queer enough to say that now i realize somehow i have been out of my brains at quite a number of instances, and topping it up was the decision to move to a new place#Regret

Dimwit..the changes were obscure but not for so long until i came to my senses to realize that "No one can hurt You more than your own self"

No..I ain't any melancholy narrator of events but just bringing into words the experience i never had.

At times i felt like a good for nothing homo-sapien and someone who never saw any bad in any freaking thing#Monotonous-Vision.


Just more than a month left for this year to end but out of nothing, it gave me something which i was lacking big time; an ability to elongate the analysis phase and come to conclusion only after things
have qualified themselves for development phase#SDLC-Impact.


Wrapping it up at a note wherein a GUY who happens to be my clandestine love though i never confessed, lately taught me that "expect nothing even from yourself MINZA"..and I'm taking it forward from here.

Love You BIG-B, #Officially-Announced!!!

P.S..BIG B is my elder brother, my Father, My feel good sibling!!!