Stop This Shame!!!

Suddenly in the midst of nowhere, i find myself questioning my existence as a girl..belonging to the opposite sex..



  is it a curse..a blessing..an omen to be born as a girl child???







As this year marked a terrible end with Delhi's braveheart paving a way for the much needed revolution in a country like india,

a glitch remains..was death too dishonorable?..so brutal and so quick..



The world may be marching ahead with all the technical advancements..innovations..know hows and all that stuff which makes life more sound and more happening.

i as a citizen of this country im as ashamed as anything..



Male chauvinism seems to be dominating our society making it the worst ever to be lived in..



ain't we born with shame?..dignity?..self respect and above all respect for others?..for God sake ain't we humans..dont we have sisters..mothers..wives..back home?





Why can't the mindset of people change?..why don't we learn to behave?..why can't we treat others equally as humans?..and finally where the hell is our shame??

Protests will slow down as that wind which ultimately settles down somewhere in the heart of mother earth..these emotions will get wiped out with time but what will remain is the sense of guilt and shame amongst all those who have still that conscience left i themselves..



As we all progress into the new year, i wish to see that SHAME in men inculcated to the highest of levels so that we don’t have to be so open in proclaiming ourselves as the most purest form of human creations!!!

     In all that humility..

      Amidst that shame..

     I have no one to share with..

      no one to blame..

      My childhood teaches me respect..

      My adulthood asks the same..

      As time advances..

     O men..

     where have u lost your shame?

     I AM in your lives..like a shadow..

    I AM  your sister..Ur better half..and the one who brings you forth..

    Why don’t u remember the same??

     I have served u in all that shame..

    open your eyes..open your soul..

   show the world..Humans exist..

     STOP THIS SHAME!!!

Damn..i'll find the right time...

Damn..i'll find the right time...

                                                     
Let me tell u..blah blah..leave it..
Actually the thing is..blah blah..leave it..
I wanted to tell u..ohh..let it be..
Just wanted to let u know that..forget..*i'll find the right time*
I would have told u but..forget..u won't understand..
I wanted to say..but never found the right situation..

Lately..i found procrastinating things never serves any purpose..
We all look for that so called "RIGHT TIME".."RIGH MOMENT"..to let anyone know how special he/she is..what he means..

What does it take to tell anyone..Dude..ur perfect..
or Lady..i just love u..
Mom..u r my world..
Buddy..u r my shadow..
God..i would have been nothing without you..

Just a fraction of time??,,is it??..that fraction of time which we ain't sure of getting tomorrow..
that fraction of time..which would change anyone's life..and that fraction of time which is meant to be lived now..n utilized in every damn perfect way!

Life is uncertain..Moment is now..Let those emotions flow in the right place n in the right time..so that tomorrow we won't regret and end up saying--IF ONLY!!!

FAITH...

They say world is his creation..and i say a beautiful battlefield between materialism and everlasting faith...

As we proceed through those unpredictable timelines wherein we never know what is going to happen next, an abstract yet
so practical thing keeps us glued to an existence called ALLAH(swt)..and that is Faith unplugged..


Churning away in distress, cursing our deeds, just seeking that one chance where in we could rectify our misdeeds,
we lately realize that unless we come through those tough times, nothing could ever make us realize the importance of
having blessings in life..

In this life, He puts us to test, test in different forms..disguises.and checks on if his followers are strong enough to face it
or not..and ultimately there is a reason for every Halt..Hiccup..Resistance..and our ways of overcoming oer them leads us to
that reason and ultimately the glory set within..


Tides may push the water outa sea,,speeding away towards that strange thing called land..
but ultimately they are rebounced back to their source...

Likewise, if somethings go outa course, that is just to observe the other side of life coz no one likes one-sided story..
and ultimately like sea waves..things fall into their place..but this time having a thing added up to their existence..
and that is Experience..

I may sound philosophical..pragmatic..analytic..narccissist..delivering a sermon on Rocket science thing..
but lately if an immature being like me can fall in that ultimate Faith serving as an impetus to that supreme existence
 who holds
the reins of this just one temporary phase of our existence..its time to wake up to reality and face the music because
Allah(swt) knows the best..

     i was lost...

     i  was astray..

     Nights taught me perseverance..

     Days brought back that persistence..

     They made life easier..

     n here i am with that immortal faith forever!!!

Soul Sister---!!!

"A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost.  ~Marion C. Garretty"



I dont know from where to start with describing the person who renders life to this LIFE itself...

a charmer..
a magician..
a soul rejuvenator..
a bliss..
a blessing..
pure love..
ultimate affection..

Yes i am amongst one of those luckY people on this planet who have been blessed with a charmer in their life which in common terms is termed as a SISTER...

Being the successful diva herself, this lady is responsible for blooming in the happiness of my life..
unleashing the beautiful meaning of sisterhood in my life, she is more than a saviour
to me...



understanding me by coming down to my level, those selfless comforts, those effortless smiles,
hiding those unseen tears just to make me strong..my sister unfolds the other side of this world to me..

She has taught me the meaning of CARING and SHARING...importance of precedence of relations and all that an elder sister needs to do but in a beautiful manner wherein all i
do is to love her more and more..

spending my 23 years with her, both of us experienced hell lots of emotional set backs but we were always there for each other smiling and weeping it all thoroughly
and strengthening the bond bestowed to us by Almighty..

A person who no matter what makes me feel special in any of the circumstances....prioritising my existence than anyone else!!!..

Ranging from expensive accessories to ATM card..this person has left no stone unturned to add that MIDAS touch to my life..celeberating my success..laughing off the failures..
rendering that MOVE ON theory to this journey of life..and without her around...life seems SOUL-LESS..

There a problem arises..and here my GODMOTHER(sister) solves it in a jiffy..which leaves me indebted to her in every sense..

Life seems such an easy affair when u have such a person in ur life who is into u and ur doings and loves u more than anything..

all my life i know i will be carefree in every aspect as i have the strongest back up of my sista but a thing that bothers me is that my LADY LOVE never discusses her problems.
.aise to she never lets any tear to conquer her smile..
but when it becomes too high of an affair..my eyes have the numero uno precedence of rolling out the tears which in other way wre meant to be shed by her..
such is the bond i share with my soulful sister..who
is everyones favourite..sometimes i envy her in this respect..but at the end i land up BRAGGING about her..yes..she belongs to me..she is my sister..and i am PROUD of her..


as i wind up..all i can say is..my sister is the SPINAL CORD of this very being..and the MORE OF HER IS LESS FOR ME..

as they say..

"hasne rulane ka aadha pauna vada hai:)"

Symphony of life!!!

       "The music is all around us...all we have to do..is listen "(courtesy--AUGUST RUSH)"

This post goes out to all those people who light up on a slight jingle or else by a loud bang and im proudly one amongst them:)

Amazing symphony..that rhythm..those tunes..those chords..all that makes up a real fantasy..a celebrated reality, which i call the heart of my life..MUSIC  it is..!!!!

You don't need to converse about it, u seek no replies, u expect no attention..its your companion all through..all we need is put the jig on and get mesmerised in the soul

of what is a real treat to our ears and hence to our ownself..

Sometimes mapping to our real life and sometimes grooving in amazing plots which is no doubt is the  magical part of it..!!!

Shake a leg..humm the tunes..whatevr it may be..it gets you all along the uneven flow of life rendering a sort of "EVEN-NESS" to it..


Be it the soft melodies or the crazy hip hop  beats, foot tapping numbers ,,,every single note has a different story to tell and depends upon us in which category we find our sync..



Capable of rolling out tears..sound enough to bring that smile up..music can do it all..infact way better than human emotions:)


Even nature is full of music..ranging from chirping of birds..to beauty in that falling rain producing that outa world clattering..racing tides..thundering sky
and the list goes on and on....

Apart from being a beautiful amalgamation of symphonies, MUSIC is something that needs to be felt and valued in a way that life itself sings a song till eternity!!!!

Just a sneak peak:)

I live life like an unpredictable occurrence of series of events where in you never know what is going to drop in next to excite you to either happiness or sadly to an utter disappointment.....

Balanced by highs and lows, this typical human behavior leads to expectations once any such thing knocks the door of your sleeping dreams..

Laugh till your smile widens up to full extent..

Cry till all those tears are shed..

think till all those thinking caps flee..

speak unless all those emotions are wiped out..

Live as if tomorrow never existed!!!

Choose to be a silent observer, sunk in all that needs to, give life a new dimension by gifting it with all that makes it a beautiful perception to tread on...

Human nature as they say is very complicated and i being one am tangled n this complicacy:P

i try to bring forth all that what i observe here in,,,and i guess my observing power needs to be enhanced beyond levels..to make it precise, life is teaching me so many things in a single go and i ought to learn them by heart!!!

winding up at a note that mothers are really special..even if you don't want to miss them..that hidden feeling comes up to say that I MISS U MA..long live my love..my mom:)

ReFlEcTiOnS!!!

As i begin describing myself..just find my persona in sync with these LP lyrics..

"when my time comes..
forget the wrongs that i have done..
let me leave behind some..
reasons to be missed.."

Moody, egoistic, impulsive, impatient are some of the dark sides of this not so noticeable me,,,leaving behind the qualities of being selfless, confident and loyal..

An amalgamation of all that childhood stuff, fairytales, school, friends, dolls and all that stuff that makes life of a kid worth..life has never been the same.

I need not to go and dig in all the matters related but just to say that this journey has been one to watch out for..from being a crazy person, extremely extrovert, without even a single worry , tear to pass by, i transformed into someone who is known for her introvert, quiet nature..no doubt with close buddies i lash it out but for the rest of the world im more like MISS.NOT SO CONCERNED(bang on)..

With a zeal to move on to create more than a normal recognition for myself,,i tread along exploring things,,whether they are in my stride or life is taking me in its stride..i feel no shame in saying that im hardly bothered by what people take me as,,find me as,,describe me as..what matters to me is what i mean for the people whom i count on..

I dont want to be famous..i dont want to be beautiful..showy..pompy..clingy..i just want to be a person who accomplishes herself just as i want myself to be..SIMPLE yet COMPLETE\m/!!!