Adieu to an even 2014!

Well..Im still alive, survived a year and once again im here to do a quick round up of 2014 that was just a number that looped in a counter to my age..confusing..ain't it?

5 days left for this 365 day old thingy to end and then a new year will ring in..and again this cycle will repeat...

Lets make it simple..

I'm thankful to Almighty for being the best He could be and making me survive with ease and a biggggg smile..o yes, i earned it;-)..
And ofcourse i love my mom more and with each day all i want is to make her smile and proud of the shady me:-)

 Crapy things din't matter.. Douchebags  punched(so damn hard)..bloopers nagged..and at the end happiness just ushers in..i mean it needs no big space, just a hole to sneak in with all the positivity!

World as a whole saw lots of ups and downs in every field..let me leave that to MEDIA as they will for sure do justice in the upcoming days to spice up the story lines with titles like '2014 A year that was'..blah blah blah..

So..upfront for the new year and of course lots of things in pipeline, lets hope it turns up to be the game changer..Inshallah!

P.S:  Some people not only deserve a high 5 but all the punches to shut up the crap coming out and need to GET A LIFE!

Having said that, Allhamdulilah for everything and i hope and wish 2015 is my year!

                        My words can't be erased since they are inscribed on my mind!!

BBYEE 2014...And a warm welcome to the +1 member(2015)..

Just Like That!

In a season of unending worries..
Heart looks for a respite..
Searches for a reflection which can withhold its course..


Day begins with hangover of yesterday's struggle..
Not away from the horizon of having it looked after..

Words spun to express the plight..
Thoughts woven to pre-empt the sight..


Zillions of faces; extra zillions of mindsets..
But what one wants needs no remuneration..


The journey of life is one big delusion..
An illusion..
A mirage..
Or whatever the perception..

I can't peep into your heart..
I can't read your thoughts..


But the puzzle remains..
What actually a person wants!


P.S: Sometimes all we need is a liitle bit of introspection!

A day in my life!!`

A day in my life!!

A day when the sun rose up..

A day when no one anticipated the vision..

A day when big palaces stood high..

A day when people had no reason to sigh..


Nothing was vivid unless..it happened..


A flowing beauty..a still lake..could turn into beasts..who imagined!


 Devastating every nook and corner..from A to Z..everything was brought down to its micro level!

God has his plans..Doesnt he???

The magnitude of loss is something which cant be gauged in words and i feel dumbstruck to describe what it felt like being a part of the damage, though not directly..

Such things have been happening day in and day out in so many civilizations before but what distinguishes it from the rest is that I AM A PART OF THIS DELUGE..my native in shambles!!!

Kashmir...My Alma mater..
"Ghar wandhai ghar saasa cse hue khasa na ousum kahn"
Inshallah we will rise again and show the world that all it takes to be the PARADISE on earth is not only the beauty but the stamina and confidence to maintain its place in the world and make it count AGAIN as one of the beautiful places on earth!!!

P.S—A walk down the memory lane…An exquisite net of visions..
        A déjà vu..a Mirage..
    Hope to see you in place soon!!

An Open Letter To a saga called DEATH!

This post is dedicated to Death "Angel" who doesnt whatsapp, BBM, post on  a wall or tweet before making its presence felt but instead throws a big SURPISE bash..

I dont know when I will be put to the confrontation..maybe today..tomorrow..day after or even few moments from now but this post will be there as a testimony to describe what death means to a human being!


Death..

If asked what I have always avoided getting into the length of, It will certainly be an act that puts a BIG FULL STOP and a permanent halt to a magic called LIFE..

Incomplete accomplishments..
Banished dreams..
Unexpressed feelings..
Devouring certainity so profusely..

Dear Death..I have not always covetted your counterpart but having said that I have always dreaded the very mention of you..

Not that I dont believe in life after death..i verily do..

But somehow the way you function sometimes makes me wonder why am I even living???

No..not challenging the rules of nature..but somethings need to be settled here..

I wonder..don't you even pity anyone?

A mother whose smile is widened by the apple of her eye..her SON..you take him away with no regrets.

A father who wants to do so much for his family..you cut away the course of his journey and label his children as orphans..

If i go on naming the relations and fantasies you end up, maybe I will detest more to live..

Cruelty epitomises your being for you don't even think for a nano-sec before closing the chapter that had yet to witness the spring of joys..

The pain inflicted in the loss can't be gauged..not atleast by you.for the burnt knows the impact of burning!


Life does move on..but the remanants of loss create a void that cant be filled even by the miracles of the ochre called life!

We humans tread the destined paths, resonate between the highs and lows, realise quite a lot of things but never do we witness the gusts of
unpredictability brought in our lives by your presence.

Your one blow..and our world is dashed to the ground!

And never do we know..what we witness afterwards!!!


                                                       I breath into you..
                                                       I laugh for you..
                                                       I sigh for you..
                                                       But dear Life..
                                                       What lies ahead..is unknown..even to YOU!


p.s--When my time comes, I wont regret the fact that i din't have few words with Death Angel!

An excerpt from a girl's mind..

For all Maybellines..

Dashy Macs..

Classy Loreals..

Easy Lakme..

Hovering Louis Vittons..

Exuberant Chanels..

Hip Hop D&G'S..

This is for you..

*Warning--All views are my own made up observation of XX set of choromosomes(being one myself)..No offence in the making..

Lets start from quite an early stage.

Childhood:

Dolls..we kick off our life with these amazing piece of human creation wanting ours to be the best.

And saying so Barbie Doll is everyones dream.

A girl wants her doll to reflect and quantify the exact amount of emotions she goes through..

So the story begins..

She is a girl.let her be one..

Let her have it all..

Be it the floral line of clothing..attraction for the color pink..

singing songs..that zeal to be a SON to the family..frankly speaking, im proud to be a part of this gender.

And once she grows up..the life begins..

I know a fraction  of the audience will be quite different, but for the majority of folks..lets just MAKE-UP.

Kohl in the eyes..

Liner upwards..

Shiny gloss on the lips..

Fragrant beings..

Brand conscious..

Spree to be the best outa the already BEAUTIFUL(if not they tend to be) lot..

but lets just for a second forget the plastics..the looks and the grandeur..

Ever thought about what she really wants???

Bottling up the pure set of feelings and intentions..a girl wants emotions at the top.

She wants to be with her father..always..to show the world what real SUPPORT means..

She wants to mirror her mother for being what she is and gearing up for the life like hers..she wants to be HER..with HER..

She want to be a SISTER who justifies being a sibling..no matter what..epitomising love at every step..

She wants someone who will hold her hand not for the sake of holding..but believing that he will make sure to keep her happy more than her family..

And finally she wants to be a FRIEND who redefines friendship each moment..each hour..

Not neglecting that most of us get caught in puppy love, just for the sake of contemporary trends but if a larger picture is viewed..A girl can exemplify why humans are called LORD OF CREATIONS..

Its not about having..

Not about doing..

Not about showing..

Not about bragging..

Its about making the right choices and dimensionising the outlook we have..

P.S--Life ushers in maturity when you are about to act immature!!!

FairyTale..Personified!

As i opened my eyes..
Someone stood right besides..
Gambling the happiness..all the treasured aspirations..
She looked at me..
With an affection..which no one can gauge..

Making way for her last child..
She zeroed in on this delight..
Standing taller than my beliefs..
Cascading hopes, which were magnificient indeed..
Walking those steps with me..
Sharing those joys with me..
Disguising all the pain with held..
With an ever true smile..which scintillates even in my voids..
Squandering her own dreams..to make me dream one..
She elevated the level of my life..
If anyone asks me what LOVE is..
Its what my MOM has given me since my first breath..
As life progresses..I realise what I have achieved..
Tangibles have no count..But what matters the most is the serenity and completeness that my mom's untangible yet so firm and ever increasing LOVE has given me..
tantamounting my life to no less than a visble FAIRY TALE!!!

p.s..
I mayn't be any disney princess but when it comes to living one such life, my mom has surely made me live the Kingdom Of My Dreams!!!

Out Of Nowhere!!!

Yes..Yes..a big yes to the fact that I have been away for quite a sometime now..
But what kept me away was rather interesting than to ponder over.
Life sometimes offers too much in a too quick manner that you have a choice what to devour and what not..
A list of abstract materialistic fantasies lined up..
Naah i ain't talking about any 'FEASTIC' venture but the last two months have been amazing!
IPL..yet again, my favorite cricketing extravaganza..
Each day..each hour..each moment was special in itself..Courtesy..The great Venture..
And what made the campaign more special was a slow and steady win by my favorite team..
KKR..clinched 2nd title this season and it was a sheer fun to support and cheer for the guys in purple..

So often i accidentally come across instances which render me so damn happy and CRICKET is one such thing..
The tournament kicked off at one place and winded up at another; in between adding on to the basket of  memories and unfolding the veils of true happiness..
..(be it for the writer or the game itself)..
And it between football world cup added to the frenzy..im not a footie fan but it was good to see some hot shots adding the glamour to uber green firlds in Brazil..and yes Im again in love with this lad called NEYMAR!!!

Football was on a high in every nook and corner but yes i dont find the game as exciting as apna desi CRICKET!!!
Precisely last couple of months have bestowed me with the credentials of being myself at every cost and qualified the fact that when you have  strong back to lean over, you aint afraid of falling umpteen times!!!

P.S..The more I live, The more I realise..Allah is there to ward off every true believer of his worries and loopholes!

In awe of HAPPINESS!!!

 I came across some blog which related food to happiness, so much so that each word had a connect  to the underlying feeling associated.

I have never visualized FOOD that way..

For me, its just any other entity that is required to keep those breaths coming, to survive in this race and above all, we eat to live or vice versa.

But everyone is entitled to his/her own opinions and maybe I have failed to see the brighter side of edible stuff or else life kept me too busy to witness this..

Somehow that brought forth the concept of happiness..

What is happiness?
What does it mean to be happy?
When do we become happy?

Lately Pharrell’s song about happiness has been associated with the INTERNATIONAL HAPPINESS DAY and it sings aloud about this feeling!

If we conduct a census and ask people what makes them happy, we won’t be surprised to get n number of reasons, all unique in themselves.

For a poor person, it’s about earning enough to meet the two ends of the day..

For a rich person, it’s about adding more bucks to the already overflowing bucket..

For a kid, it’s about daddy bringing all the nicest toys..

For the barren land, it’s about the awaited showers..

For a mother, it’s about her children..

And the list is endless..

If I ask myself what happiness means, I seriously have to think a lot.

Happiness according to me, is an innate feeling arising out of completeness and a sense of confidence in whatever you have done or you are supposed to do or else you are doing..

Happiness is managing to make people smile amidst their deepest sorrow..

Happiness is making your parents proud of your existence..

Happiness is being fair enough..

Happiness is making a big deal out of the small pleasures of life..

Happiness is being there for your chosen ones..

Happiness is being trustworthy..

Happiness is experiencing the season’s first rainfall lashing you out in the downpour..

Happiness is seeing  a baby smile in sheer innocence..

And I can define it in hell lot of ways..

But precisely happiness is being proactive about the fact that this life is too short to be wasted over worries which do no good to us..

So let’s make happiness the constant element of our lives, put it in the driver’s seat, brace ourselves  and enjoy the HAPPY RIDE!

VROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!

P.S.—These lines from the happy song add to the aura of the finest human emotions:

It might seem crazy what I'm about to say
Sunshine she's here, you can take a break
I'm a hot air balloon that could go to space
With the air, like I don't care baby by the way


Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like that's what you wanna do

Making Way For My Season..Monsoons!!!

Here is the much awaited time of the year!

Monsoons on their way..

Its dark..breezy..kind of magic!

Earth awaits to witness the dampness in no time..

But till then the wait gets no easier and in between one can feel the ambiance and the stage being set for the natural wonder..

I, being a pluviophile, have every reason to bring forth this charm!

Be it the tiny droplets..

The underlying splash..

Aroma in air..

Associated clattering..

Sky showering the blessings..

Dry land sensing that water from heavens..

Every part of the rain is wondrous enough to accommodate the feelings associated.

On a personal front, this is just one of things that rains in the happiness for me!!!

Below is a click(snapped by me as I can see from my window) of the City Of Dreams gearing up for the rhythmic splash!

P.S--Somethings in life tend to be your eternal favorites like this RAIN for me!

Oblivion???

And sometimes I think about the world, though a chunk of universe..

The Life..

The happenings..

The Resentment..

The Bliss..

The Apology..

The Forgiveness..

The Grudges..

Dreams..(reflection..sideffects of living..)..

The Struggle..

The Pain..

The Remedy..

The Love..

The Hatred..


  An unfathomable sea of humanly knit brittle emotions..and alas obliterated by Death!


O Life though you give humans everything..Death just confiscates your heart..
You just get chickened by its mere presence..

But verily..not mortified, though a bit odius!!!

Yet I am a big fan of your audacity making this "Forever wthin a number of days" seem so surreal!


P.S..THis verse from Quran makes it worth accepting and qualifies our life as a transition between two worlds:

"To Allah we belong and to Him we shall return." (Quran Surat Al Baqarah 2:156)"

She..Unplugged!!!

And its the world celebrating International Women's Day!!!

Being one myself, I feel quite lucky to belong to this category of human race which is diverse in every bit..*chosen*


An immediate and so good to feel example..Our Mom.

A woman who is responsible for our existence and we owe it to her..till death.


Woman symbolizes quite a number of significant characteristics and outlooks which are detrimental to a society in which we dwell..day in and day out.


Well, I will try to frame this post not as a female chauvinist but as a proud woman/girl/lady..whatever the name we give it to those 'XX' set of chromosomal characters.


The journey!!!

We start from being Daddy's little princesses..

No doubt, the bond between a girl and her father is beyond any explanation..

Pure..Selfless..Tightly bound by affection..

Backbone of a daughters existence..and an emotional hub of fathers love..

The start is as beautiful as the newly bloomed rose in a garden..fragrant..classy and forever favourite!!!

And Daddy becomes the first love of a girls life..setting the standards sky high..


Not to neglect the special package of love that is forever prevalent inside that lady we call our MOM..take a bow.
She is next to God..providing a hinge to the love received from both parents..this relation is as pure as that fresh drizzle of the first rainfall!!!



We grow up..a midst our likes and dislikes and in between we are sisters,,friends and the count of relations is one to many or many to many!!!

A sister for a brother..

Be it a brother-sister relation or a sister-sister relation, from a personal perspective, i find SISTER as the most compassionate and a realistic form of being a woman.

Beware..My brother is a hero..don't mess with him..
My brother masters masculinity..beat it..
My brother protects me..invincibly
and above all..
My brother is possessive about me..
Like a precious pearl guarded by an oyster shell..O brother how dear you are to me..
I find endless reasons for thanking God for crowning me as a sister!!!


Sister for a sister

Well i have a mirror image of a perfect PRINCESS..

She is beautiful..confident..emotional...flamboyant but down to earth as she is Me inside another body..

Sisters are one soul, presiding inside two bodies..

Harm one..other sulks..
Make one happy..joy reflects in her counterpart.

An inseparable creation of Almighty whose sole purpose is to justify being siblings and friends forever..

Friend..

Well this one is quite tough to define since she epitomizes a tinge of sisterhood in friendship(saying so from personal experience)

Communicating through normal senses is quite common..

We communicate through eyes..

Ranging from a minor tiff at home to a drop dead gigantic crush..we share it all..

We make fun of each other..pull each other's leg..but at the same time celebrate our differences and respect each other.

In that case, sometimes we pose a biggest threat to anyone..mess with my friend..and dude, your game is over..
Like that sweet n sour..CHIP and Dale..
or those adolescent bunch of ladies.. Rachel..Monica or Phoebe of FRIENDS..

or last but not the least..Robin and Lily of 'How I Met Your Mother'

We get along with everything in our own way..

Girls..aren't we bestowed with such wondrous existence??

If yes..then wait for it..next is your Kingdom of Dream that follows..


Soul mate..


Well whosoever is bound to join as a companion in living the rest of this "forever within limited time" called LIFE, is our PRINCE CHARMING..

Having redefined the meaning of Love, we serve as Wives to our Husbands and as such portray the most important character of our lives which is that sort of building block for the generations to follow..



So we justify and dimensionalise the feeling of LOVE in different forms and that is the beauty of being a female!!!


Not to forget the rising role of women in all walks of life..

A perfect Doctor..

A skilled Engineer..

Role Model..Teacher..

Sky soaring Astronauts..

Glamour doll Models..

Fashionista Actress..

Amazingly interesting Writers..

Witty Journalists..

And obviously the list is endless...since ocean inside us is profound enough to accommodate and reflect any talent..



Shoutout to the spirit called Womanhood!!

P.S..this pic says it all:

In conversation with Myself!!!

A hidden maniac for sure..
A dreamer on a roll..

Sometimes over the top..
Sometimes out of the box..

I took a long time to get into the depth of my being..
But once related.. it has been a flaming thing..

Religiously grumpy.. Categorically selfless ..
I always try not to make an unnecessary mess .. Nevertheless;-)

Framed by my rules, my beliefs and my perceptions..
Adamant enough to cause a stir..
I believe in what I ought to be..
Be it my delusion..

Conversations go on and on..
With people??
Naah..It’s me..conversing with myself..from dusk till dawn..

Magnitude of thoughts is hefty..
Dimensions of vision are widespread..

Sometimes down the line..
All piles up inside this petty li’l mind of mine..

At times breaking the shell..
Sometimes..inside I dwell..

Mocking off my immaturity..
Celebrating my wit..
Visualizing life in a different spirit..

In the quest to know the true colors of life..
Its aim..
Its key..
Looks like I am here to break the magicians code!!!

PS:  Even the angels have their wicked schemes!!!
(a line from a track by Rihanna)

An attempt to Resurrect!!!

Caught between the tough times and equally tough people..
Sometimes i question myself..

Am i too naive..too brittle to handle..
Am i too focused or gone out of the loop..
Am i saturated or still the glass is half empty or else half full?

Change at times is required..but it can't necessarily be the permanent element of life..

Having pushed my boundaries..
Having tried to attempt something new..
Coming across the different colors of world..

I tried to familiarize myself with what was missing in me..



But now..

I can feel the pressure..
Pressure deep down..
A call from my roots..

To where I belong..
With all synonymity..

And..suddenly i feel alienated in this unknown zone..


That smile which gives a green beautiful signal to my day..Mom..
Since i have missed that all this time..happiness seems more of a stranger to me!!!

A support..a friendship..a confidant..a person who mirrors my being..Sister..
Definitions of these words seem to have changed since you epitomize their purity.

A sweet n sour relationship rendering guard and all affection to my life..Dear Brothers..
Having missed that..i feel astray!..

And above all..a feeling which completes me as a person..

A feeling of being at HOME!!!


Its time..
Its time to fit in my place..to restore happiness..to be what I was!!!

P.S..Now that i know where I belong, the journey will be easier..

FlashBack!!!

Peekaboo..


The very first post of this year is dedicated to all those people who have left an impression in my life since the time i met them in this professional journey.

Its exclusively dedicated to my team mates and my mentors out there in Pune.

A bit off the track but not the one to be missed out on..


Corporate world..

Something characterized by backstabbing..planning..politics..favors..spoon feeding..flattery and what not.

I don't disagree on these various flavors of our typical IT industry but somehow i came across some different perceptions and altogether different mindsets.


And its confined to a place which has made that special place in my life for making me what I am today.

Pune..East Oxford..rightly named so.

An extra sober city with classic lifestyle garnished by quality people..that's what its all about.

Kicked off mt IT career with this place and explored my various sides which were hidden up till now in some of the darkest corners of my individuality.

With each day i learned,,,earned and became a better individual than i was earlier(no doubt i became extra lean;-))


And somehow overly shy being of mine confronted its upbeat form for the very first time..

Pune it was..my favorite and it will continue to be.


And in this journey i made some quality friends with whom i found an easy connect and a respect within.

Selfless characters have always attracted my fondness and i found a bunch there.

Today i stand at a point wherein no doubt the # of my friends stays limited but the quality within is unfathomable..can't even be gauged and
thats what makes me happy and satisfied to acknowledge myself as a good friend.

This much would be enough to qualify the impact and the place Pune has in my life that instead of being from a far far state i love to say..JAI MAHARASHTRA!!!

P.S--Some things are surreal and stay with you for an entire lifetime no matter where u are!!!