A year that was...2013

and here is a big bye to the the year which was in itself a mixed bag of happenings but primarily not the best outa the lot!!



I witnessed some of the most beautiful moments of my life which will be dear to me throughout this journey.

Laughed, cried, sulked, sobbed...no emotion was missed and yes I realised that it has been some time now since I have grown up..thoda sa hi sahi.


Given new dimensions, things do behave differently..

I did not know this but as they say better late than never..i finally understood this!!


A parody of months..zillions of moments..what else..


Jan..Feb..Mar..Dear onsetters..i have no grudges from you..you were outstanding!!!

April..May..June..Dear mid quarter..you were the best..

I had some of the best experiences in these months which made me happy like never before and built in the confidence inside me.

But as they say..nothing lasts forever..

July..Aug..not so good..not so bad..dearies..you can be ignored..

September..the game changer!!!

In a way this month, changed the course of my outlook towards people and myself.

I never visualised things from different angles though it was needed and as such i perceived them in my way which made nothing seem harmful and unreal to me.

But a stone can be either a stepping one or stumbling one and in both cases, you go off the track to discover something new..so did I.


Wake me up when September ends han!!!


October...

November..dull enough

December..
and last month was some relief..

Spent some quality time with my mom which rejuvenated this being of mine.


My lifespan-1...bye bye 2013


Dumping all the negative energies and thoughts in your fading shadows..Im stepping forward with lots of expectations from 2014 as it equals #7!!!

Get..Set..and Gooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

Impromptu Lesson By Salman Khan!!!

I have never been that BHAI aka Salman fan since i belong to his counter part fan club..yes, rightly guessed a hard core SRK fan..
and why not to be..apart from being KING OF HEARTS, SRK is that hub of intelligence and well built scholarish mind..


But my subject today is not to display the greatness and charm of my favorite actor but something that was a random thought from Salman yet it caught my attention..so much so that, this post is all about that one line.


Day: Sunday
Channel: Star World.
Show: Coffee With Karan.

So, on 1st December, this great "Coffee flavored" show premiered its 6th season and to everyone's surprise Salman Khan was the first to be aired..


Well..eyebrows raised..skeptical opinions..blah blah..that's what media spiced it up with, but I will be keeping it simple enough.



Casual enough..witty answers..confronting every question..confusing the host himself..talking about his rivals..etc etc, Salman was at his best that i have ever witnessed in my entire lifetime.

And a segment with Salman's father was that icing on the cake which made everyone realise that even the biggest of stars maintain that "offspring" character in front of their parents..rightly portrayed by Bhai..


The conversation went on and on and suddenly this particular piece of conversation caught my already stiff attention:

"Mere andar abhi bhi wo purana salman hai..i miss him..lekin use andar hi rakhta hu main..bahar nahi laata..this part of me is Boring"

And yes i found a connect with it..


Truly said Mr.Khan..

There are lot of us, who for the sake of matching the contemporary trends and needs, keep the real part of their nature inside, buried deep down..but they forget that its a part of
their being, their existence and a part of their recognition.

Agreed that in this world of high-end, brutal competition, we need to pull up our socks and bring out the best in us, but in that struggle forgetting our basic instincts and interests is nowhere justified
for I have realized happiness is an innate feeling..you just can't force yourself to be happy..

With the flow of life, lets just not make our real dreams and ambitions go waste but instead work towards them, bring them forth in the front seat and give ourselves a chance to take the charge..


One Life..
Infinite Dreams..
Billions of Encounters..
One Hit..
And there You go..


PS: This coffee had a blend of hidden "BEING HUMAN" flavors in it!!!

Now And Then!!!

A look at the year "dusking" its end!!

A somewhat proactive attempt but nevertheless too early..

I really cant sum up what this year has given me  or to be precise has deprived me of.

2K13 was one of those "not so wannabe years" wherein i found myself typically helpless in the hands of time.

Not squandering my "Never Say Die" attitude, i tried giving it my best shot, being all that I am, believing in tomorrow
and somehow marching ahead but then you can win a battle with anyone except for the one wherein you have to confront your own self and nothing is hidden#Unavoidable.


The first half seemed natural, modest without any melodrama or halts, a somewhat smooth flow of life with nothing to waste thoughts and energy on.
it would be better to state it as the best time of the year where I was in my comfort zone..confident enough to play with Life and resort to my own beliefs and perceptions.

I had no complaints..not a nano fraction of regret or hurt..see i was HAPPY!!!

But things can never be same..Courtesy---TIME#a big Ruler


A change of place marked the beginning of 2nd half to much of a mixed emotion..never did i know what it will turn me into#Delirious

Never did i frame any conviction about any happening but that was so imbecile of me.

It may be queer enough to say that now i realize somehow i have been out of my brains at quite a number of instances, and topping it up was the decision to move to a new place#Regret

Dimwit..the changes were obscure but not for so long until i came to my senses to realize that "No one can hurt You more than your own self"

No..I ain't any melancholy narrator of events but just bringing into words the experience i never had.

At times i felt like a good for nothing homo-sapien and someone who never saw any bad in any freaking thing#Monotonous-Vision.


Just more than a month left for this year to end but out of nothing, it gave me something which i was lacking big time; an ability to elongate the analysis phase and come to conclusion only after things
have qualified themselves for development phase#SDLC-Impact.


Wrapping it up at a note wherein a GUY who happens to be my clandestine love though i never confessed, lately taught me that "expect nothing even from yourself MINZA"..and I'm taking it forward from here.

Love You BIG-B, #Officially-Announced!!!

P.S..BIG B is my elder brother, my Father, My feel good sibling!!!

Eliminating Cliche!!!

            "In an unending fight between heart and mind, i seem to be a mere spectator#Confused"

When people lash out at their two important "organs" for existence, im really surprised as to how they are able
to give lead to either of them and pacify the other..Confusing..ain't it??

The dilemma seems unsurmountable but yet again we have a clear winner at the end..either the mind..or the heart!!!


The four chambered entity is too fragile to handle since it is laden with innumberable emotions and feelings where as the mind
everytime portrays its tough being..the grey matter..or the white matter..the intelligence hub(BRAIN) renders strength to it
every moment!!


And in my case, brain has an edge#Truth


Heart laments for things to go in its stride, whereas the BRAIN lists down the pros and cons of every freaking aspect of any issue leaving you aghast to elude
anything*sigh*



Ignorance is bliss sometimes..a blessing in disguise!!!



And then once in a blue moon, we tend to come across a situation where heart and mind are so much in harmony that deciding something seems a petty cake walk
but such instances are so rare..

The purpose of writing this post is to bring forth the confusions and continuous struggle within oneself which goes on inside us without creating any havoc or
making its presence felt but just that..confined to ourselves..

Whose side to take is completely..Your Call!!!

P.S--Within our own confusions, we find a way through!

Just Saying!!!

Some weird thoughts need ESCAPE VELOCITY to trash out from the GRAVITY of our mind!!!

where

G=Gravity developed in our brains(varies from person to person)
M=Mass of the thoughts to be flushed out(weighed by complexity of situation)
R=Resistance to overcome the trash...




P.S:
Lately i have developed that Scheldon Cooper effect(courtesy BIG BANG THEORY)!!!

A tale of an Angry Bird..Goofy..Eid Ul Adha..and the City of Pearls!!!

1..2..3..4..5..6..7..yes i can zero in on # 7..

7 years since i have been away from my home..celebrating life in its various forms..Firstly striving to make myself capable to earn a postion in the fast growing multitude of competitive world..and  once
 done..working to enhance what was left to be groomed further..

So today my post will depict EID-UL-ADHA in the city of Pearls..aka Hyderabad!!!

Minza Mushtaq|(Angry Bird) Feat Fazila Farhat(Goofy):

Umm ..leme describe the other solo character involved..

Well to be precise, she happens to be more than a sister, a confidante, my Agony aunt and someone who bears me in all the wraths..(mostly bad moods).

A typical "natkhat" personality, who, if given a chance can make even our PM(Manmohan Singh) talk (#Pun Intended) and above all justifies true friendship amidst all our disagreement#Take A bOW Goof.

So, taking a day off from work(yes, we had to apply for a LEAVE since our organization doesn't believe in festivities), we set off to the most amazing journey i have ever had in Hyderabad.


EID-UL-ADHA:

Day kicked off with early morning wishes from the family part and yet again my mom is like" Get up its Eid"..ok mom, i will be up..
Pheww..damn, why doesn't this bed just leave me alone..come on, i need to get up Honey..though deep inside i dont wana leave you;-)

Attending the calls in bed, sometimes chatting with Goofy, morning part was full of wishes and wishes with some contemporary tracks being aired in background on our favourite TV, not to forget the socail messaging apps here..Whatsapp was full on..at times irritating with continuous stream of pings..Dear WhatsApp have i ever told you how much i hate you???#TechJoke


And then..a petite breakfast comprising of a couple of pastries, puffs and our traditional "Dodh-Kehwa"(believe me, i made it) set the day ablaze to discover and explore our next stop overs..


---In between, calls and WhatsApp are in no mood to stop their share..bang on technology, you seem so synonymous to life nowadays!!!



Goofy's Rule for the day:" Har jagah auto me jana hai"..
Yes ma'am,why not..can;t stand those buses today..phewww!!!(Did i forget to mention that Volkswagan POLO is my strong crush)



Going further into the day details, Lunch happened to be at one of the exotic restuarants, whose ambience was breathtaking..loved the classic architecture and the traditional dining style, for a change Hyderabad seemed different, in contrast to our daily home to office and office to home routine!!!
Stuck at starters, we did not want to eat more..so our lunch happened to be non-veg starters garnished with hell lots of spicy talks..damn how i love them!!..and then burrppp!!!


Roaming across the streets and lanes of Hyderabad, we two girls were kind of hypnotised by the series of events happening in a city which was completely strange to us but somehow seemed appealing today.
We mocked off our way of celebration, things we planned, our chats and how we were still enjoying our way through these somehow unusual yet precious moments of time spun together to make us accept
life in its every form.

So then, back to the navigation front..this time, it was OLD CITY..Mecca Masjid and Char Minar..
Nature is always the wonderful treat to my vision and something that is never adulterated in its form..yes, the pigeons hopping, flying, devouring those silent sheath of corn lying in the premises

of Mecca Masjid was a treat to watch futher beautified by their steady flights which for a second freezed me, but then, pigeons aint that lethal*wink*

Some people had gathered there to spend some time off with goats which were ready to get sacrificed on the holy day itself.

Seeing the hustle and bustle in that part of the city somehow uplifted the spirit of festivities and for a moment we were contented..Allahu Akbar!!!

Char Minar..with all due respect to its cultural heritage, i dont find anything worth mentioning about it except for the curvature of stairs which gets on  your nerves amidst that ultimate dark atmosphere..naaah!!

Goofy keeps on praising my luck.."Teri kismat achi hai..varna ye jagah pe paer rakhne ki jagah nahi hoti"
Damn..stop it goofy..u ain't my guide..but then, you make me laugh so much so that i can't stop you..so keep on talking like that..

As day was progressing towards the dusk state which happens to be my favourite part of the day, it was time for some cafe discovery and we were off to the "posh" locality of the city..Jubilee Hills.


And my Google maps came to our rescue to discover a cafe..Testa Rossa which was down at some distant place..

Yar ye yahan k logon ko kuch poocho to..unhe malum hi nahi hota..with some exceptions.

Have you ever seen someone as stupid as us(Goofy and me) who spend so many bucks just to sip some aerated drink at some hi-fi cafe amidst people who were enjoying the star studded game--OZz taking on India while smoking their Hookahs..
a scene to watch..not only XYs, XXs also seemed enjoying Hookah but Goofy just had one thing to ask for..
"Chal na photo kheenchte hai..chal na"
And photo session was on..Goofy i get embarassed in front of people..but she won't listen and had some clicks..

Ummm..after spending some time around, we made our way towards GVK mall, and again had a tough time asking people about the exact location but again 2G did come to our rescue at times.

At GVK, again clicks went all the way, sweet poses, crazy poses but i seemed to enjoy it thoroughly..glares here and there, some glances, window shopping..and i would like to mention that of all the malls, this one seems happening enough in Hyderabad as compared to couple of others.

And finally it was time for dinner..

Goofy had already planned to have it at 1857..don't get confused..just the name of one of the finest places to dine at in Hyderabad but then destiny had something else in store for us.

Allah has made everyone equal..even our democracy doesn't support any kind of biasing..but excuse the priveleges that some people in the society get and what can be a better example than some MLA'S WEDDING..Happy Wedding Mr.Whosoever but sorry to say you screwed up our dinner time, our plans at the cost of your full venue booking..parking extending to some "n" kilometers, traffic jams and above all
thanks for landing us in a situation wherein the scene was like:

"Deserted road...no human in vicinity..cell phone battery exhaustes and Goofy all of a sudden panicking"

Damn..i know i want to experience some kind of adventure, but literally not this one.

Mustering up all the courage i had, i tried to keep my calm and then..suddenly from somewhere an autorickshaw came to our much needed rescue....


Day ended with our dinner at a restuarant nearby..

It was a journey from PARADISE breakfast to PARADISE dinner!!!


To wrap it up, i had one of the most sought after days of my life on 16th'Oct'13 wherein i was myself after such a long span of time in a city which is still like a stranger to me but rendering
a firm belief in whatever happens down the line now!!!

A special thanks to Fazila Farhat(Goofy) for living this day with me since future says NO to promises.

                                                           A city..A day..

                                                we went on chasing our way..

                                            Seeking joys in  unknown pleasures..

                                          Leaving behind the homely leisures..

                                                        Was it Eid..u or me..

                                            was it our bonding..or stupid talks..

                                       the fights..the love or the selfless things..

                                  The city's strangeness..or our warmth..

                                                     whatever be the reason..

                                          You and Me make a wonderful WE!!!

            Angry Bird seemed chirpy and happy with Goofy somehow missing MAMA in between!!!

P.S.--Im gonaa miss this madness big time.

***NOTE:

• Real time pics of Hyderabad have been clicked by me in this blogpost.
• Paradise is one of the finest eateries in Hyderabad.

Reminder???

And suddenly i overheard someone questioning my existence..

What have i earned till now?
Have i justified being myself?
Have i come upto the expectations?
Have i left an elegant, abstract legacy of thoughts after i am off?


And finally have i been able to achieve that ultimate peace of mind rendering that everlasting bliss to my heart..


Well the questions are many but answers seem to be playing that hide n seek kinda game.

For every character we come across in our lives has either something to teach or something that can be overlooked but in both cases an experience we come across is what matters.


Lately i realised i hardly get time to think about myself, yes, truly, i have dumped myself somewhere down the trash amongst the worldly matters knitted into the tangles of thoughts.

                                                                 "All this time I was finding myself

                                                                  And i din't know i was Lost"(Avicii-Wake Me Up)

Mind always seems preoccupied with thoughts that were never meant to be mine.


What had i been doing all the time?

Or is it because of the fact that i never realised i had grown up, so much so that i could figure out my destination myself.


In an attempt to find answers for the pre-existing ones, a new genre of questions comes up, piled up, seeking their solutions for I seem to be puzzled right at this point of time.


But having realized the fact that the subject "I" has a priority now, i look forward to come over this cliche, set myself free and start afresh with a new outlook towards LIFE.

Having said that..its time for STANDBY.

p.s--am I the first person to overlook my existence???
                                                       

This Innocence is Brilliant!!!

                                              "Its so beautiful...
                                              It makes you want to cry..."

Going through my playlist, i came across this track by Avril..Innocence..

And then..words..thoughts..profound ideology popped up tempting me to move my fingers across this keyboard and go on typing..

Innocence..no doubt it is a very rarely found human characteristic , but wherever it is, it makes it way up there to be called as the purest form of human emotion..


Being subtle enough to accept whatever comes our way with no questions, no queries..no grudges..no expectations..no games..just a mere form of innocence within..

Sometimes it may take the form of being an idiot or a foolish person but again such things are derived from innocence..

Being so naive in exercising manipulations, innocence comes up breaking the barriers as that can be seen in a toddler or "some" years old baby..They never know what they are doing but they go on with the flow of life and make a way through whatever comes their way..crawling..falling..laughing..crying..trembling..yet never knowing the complexities of the life woven around them!!!

And once they adapt to the life around them, innocence seems making its way out and what comes in is still a mystery!

If somehow it remains intact, it can be considered one of the beautiful assets of an individual.

  Walking across these unknown lanes..
  Of some joys and infinite pains..

I witnessed a point of time...
Where my innocence was coming round and round..

Tactfully so..i went with the flow..
Not knowing the intricacies..nor the results..

I treaded on and on..
Until..my innocence became the most emphatic factor..
and here am I..
"   Slowing down I look around..I feel so amazed"!!!

P.S--These thoughts came up because of the track, Innocence By Avril Lavinge..no connection to real life scenario!!!

Standing Tall!!!

And here it is..

A glitch remains..

If..
What..
Only If..

What If..

Blah..blah..blah..


At times, what seems difficult is to be justified and being justified to..


Quite frankly, I get to know various dimensions of being a "human" in every lesson of being one myself.


You are BAD..damn..You are HEROIC..
You are GOOD..darn..you are diabetically swweeetttt..

and now if you are INDIFFERENT..You are a MORON!!!..

So you have choices and following them is your call# Purely-Yours

Not bragging any smug attitude here..but crazily these are the connecting dots of this unusual yet enticing BROTH called LIFE..

Highly incorrigible..

1..2..3..sometimes it gives u all u want to be.

3..4..5..and then trashed down because dearie its LIFE..


Cruising along its pros and cons, boons and banes, it is mystically bound around you.


Sometimes a wonder..
sometimes a crap..

At times that much awaited shower..rendering soothing effect to the tired soul..

At times the scorching heat..tearing it apart..


I may be naive, amateur..fool(if at all)..too petite..too honest..too dishonest and countless are the descriptions..


But..

I STAND TALL..

Tall above its tactics..its thunders and wonders..can's and can'ts..+ves's and -ve's..

because its all about YOU..Face it..Or Succumb!

One Fine Night!!!

One fine night..

Cradled beneath the dark night sky..
under the blue dark canvas with brightest gems..

I fell in love with the dark fantasy up above..

with the random stars and with their silent binks..
with the tender gushes and the cool ambience..

The moon glorified with its much known shine..
and peeping through my window I could witness the scene..

A conversation with the majestic maze..
Sky..thats what its called..

I had hundreds of questions and it had an ocean to decipher..

Plunged into its ecstasies.i kept on staring..

I realised whatever happens..Sky witnesses it all..but still maintains the dignity to justify its elevation..

I didnt want the night to end since i found peace and love in something which had null sensation..void feelings but then
it communicated the world to me..

The stars up above glittered meticulously..
All i could do was to reflect their shine..

The sky harboured my innumerable queries..
Promising to keep it in its vast Blue..

Narrating my experiences..big stories..concerns..woes..worries..lil chunk of happiness..
It promised to hear them all..all with a thread of honesty..so mystical..

And in amidst my fantasy dawned the next day...

Damn..reality can be such a spoil sport..

But the cycle of my imaginations continues and i wait for the day to dusk away its end..to mark the dawn of my fantasy..the dark one..

where its all between
The SKY..
The STARS..
And ofcourse MEE!!!

Words..EverLasting Words!!!

And everytime i feel low, my words come to my rescue..
Just in case when i feel alone..forlorn and much aloof..

Looking for peace within myself..within everything i want to..


Not sounding like a typical moron..heartsick or languished, i very much am into the VIBGYOR of this fantasy land.

Too much of everything takes a toll sometimes and thats why they say a little less is always better..

Uncertainities...Unprectitablilty..damn im weak in this face-off.

Umm..i guess its time to describe myself finally..

Well, my next post wil be all about myself..let me experience being SELFISH now..since the next thing coming is..
I ME AND MYSELF!!!

Hide And Seek!!!

Full of hiccups..highs..lows..and in between am I..having no reaction for the much fluent transitions..


Stabilized by thoughts..psyched by incidents..what to hold on to?

An abstract thought or the tangible occurrences..


Quite a number of times intangible things do it for you but then--Dear Life..take a bow.


In the fury of my words, im trying to bring forth myself--truly justified..ain't it??

PS--some well meant musings are best kept to yourself.

My Greatest Possession!!!

..and who says history repeats itself..

Its all in a state of mind, to be or not to be.

Going through all the sides of this little pragmatically realistic venture called life(which is still in progression), all i realized is that you just need to be yourself, trust yourself and be yourself,
and on that note, critically in love with this art of typing and expressing!!!..it has been my saviour time and again.

As i look back and realize, i have been full of flaws..flawed being but as  I move on and see flaws are moving away from me#No Pun Intended

I don't say i am nearing perfection but all i say is something is keeping me glued to my roots..its that something whom i owe my existence to..yes its you..yes its you MOTHER!!!

As a child, even that mere idea of being away from you was that nightmare wherein nothing could pacify me..candies..toys..playgrounds..na na na..i just wanted that shoulder to lean on..that cuddle to be charged up by and that affection which
is categorically PRICELESS.

You have been that MIRROR to me..wherein im able to reflect myself back at me..

To quote Justin Timberlake here:


"Aren't you somethin' to admire, cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice, you reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and the glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallell on the other side"..


"you can do it..cse kya naakabil chaka"..these lines are my feel good factor in any of the difficult situations because your confidence in me works wonders..so what if i dont succeed at times,
the level of trust you have in me, already conquers everything.

Bearing me at my bad..worst..your patience is something i can't comment on but all i can say is you are the source of my bliss and sink of my worries.

Being the youngest of your off springs, you have always made me enjoy that "privilege", be it the special outings, dinigs, shopings or last but not the least extra quota of LOVE i receive..surely i am your PRINCESS mom.

People fancy growing up so that they can have all the advantages of living a so called "free" life, and so did i.

At one point of time, we get carried away by the hot shots of being a grown up person and as per the Almighty's plan even the "sun sets in paradise".

So back am i..

                                           
Far away from YOU,
Every time i long to be with you,

If staying away and doing things single handedly is what it meant to grow up..
Never would i want to leave my childhood..

I cant understand the complexities of life MOTHER,
who would wish to live here without your shoulder,

As i near to my next birthday, 
i feel like i need more and more of this life to live with you.

Your tears may be clandestine,
but i can feel the moisture without even feeling to hold them..

MOTHER..MOM..MA..MUMMY..whatever the words be..undoubtedly you are the brightest shine of my life which keeps on glittering at me..
The sweet melody of my life which keeps on humming at the back of my mind..day in and day out..yes this is LOVe..Love for the most beautiful person in my life..

Na na..i can't match your way of write ups nor can i match the standard, but its just a leaf out of my mind which has just fallen out as i sit back and move my fingers over this keyboard with that longing in my heart.


Winding up ta a note that this post comes a bit late in my blog, but it was meant to be special since its for the special YOU mom.

Far Away From The Maddening Crowd!!!

Life inside its own proximities..is beautiful..

Life in your own thoughts is magical..

A huge bang may not have an impact..

But the silent knocks somehow..somewhere makes us gullible..beat it!!!

No surprises in the fact that as a person we tend to know ourselves the most than any other human being on this planet, cliched clause but
quite practically even this fails in this magical journey called LIFE!!

At every moment, it fills you with hopes..and at the end of that very moment. u mock the very thing u were bestowed with just a moment before.

Sidelining the crunches of being that very poised person, keeping the things down under wherein they have a permanent stay, might sometimes have an upbeat..an uproar but confined to the maxim of those instances..

Just for the sake of keeping them preserved..veiled..hidden from rest of the life's inhabitants, i have my own niche..
A niche..which is exclusive..a niche..which is my reflection..a niche which has my treasures..#No Tresspassing Allowed.

Reflecting myself..my dreams..my vision..my world is what i want it to be..

The nitty gritty being..

"Embedded into the realistic world..is a world of my own.

                                     Nested in the destined privileges..is a theme of my own..
                                    Having less words for the world outside..
                                  I have millions of words for the fantasy of my own..

Saving the much meant to be giggles for the laughter of my imagination...

Keeping the watery emotions upfront for the eyes of my fantasy..

If happiness is about having that peace of mind..joy of soul..

I find it in my dreams..my world..a world knit with my likes..nourished with my thoughts!!!"

Ye IPL hai Bosss!!!!

phewww..

uP for grabs is the heat this summer and some delightful fantasies lined up..

Work Work and a lot more work seems to be stretching like that piece of rubber with an irregular elasticity..

People Places...na na ..for this point of time they don't seem to be buying that one frame of my mind and for a change Cricket it is..

Yes its IPL season..something i look upto with so much of interest and for a change..that echoing stadium..roaring stands..enthusiastic players and above all glamour laden piece of sport..they seem so much enticing thAn anything else bringing that much needed extravanza into these boring lives..

KKR anthem it is for me..and why not since  KING Khan is leading from the front..Korbo Lorbo Jeetbo Re..Damn..such things seem so appealing to me, i love this passion..fervour and above all battle of the realistic people..

so be it anything, for a change IPL is keeping me ocupied this weekend..


Long Live Cricket..especially Pepsi IPL.."SIRF DEKHNE KA NAHI!!!!

Repercussion!!!

Patience..a word that requires 
hell lot to endure, profound yet so darn 
necessary to actually live the moment.

And who says i have it..this is one of those things which have been missing in me.


Lately i have come across some certain bunch of people who not only inculcated this"Patience"
thing in me but also made me explore my other side..

Oh yes..i can be at my best..infact im best when it omes to whom i want to be that "best-like"
with..

They say..some things are best not revealed#so true..

And here am i..

At one point of time in your life..all you want is to be happy and to top it all make those people happy
for whom you tend to be your best.

Nothing ventured..Nothing gained..

In an attempt to switching my "best" side on and off, its all about prioritising things..

If at some point of time..you think of giving up..at the next instant that something inside 
wakes up to say:

"You'll always get the BEST of me"


Is being NICE so tough#just asking:-)

That's So Meee!!!

Nascent yet true..juvenile yet facts..blurred yet illusive..this chunk is all about being a bit crazy in that innocent get up!!!

Embedding the sea of wishes..

Treading along the silence with held..

The uproar within needs a vent..

Being crazy in my own suite..

Dreaming all that i can..

Impossible enough..

Managing to get that widened expression-”Smile” though..

I come across myriad of species..

Some nice..some bad..n in all the pretence of creations..

Scrutinized in my own being..

Letting only few sane things to come up..

Iv figured out a world of my own..

Best for those whom i find worth deserving the best of me..

Inconsiderate for all the left overs..

My companions are few and rare..

But whatever i have..its very dear..

I find the wheel of time rolling and changing me..!!!

P.S----how i love to write:-)

Stop This Shame!!!

Suddenly in the midst of nowhere, i find myself questioning my existence as a girl..belonging to the opposite sex..



  is it a curse..a blessing..an omen to be born as a girl child???







As this year marked a terrible end with Delhi's braveheart paving a way for the much needed revolution in a country like india,

a glitch remains..was death too dishonorable?..so brutal and so quick..



The world may be marching ahead with all the technical advancements..innovations..know hows and all that stuff which makes life more sound and more happening.

i as a citizen of this country im as ashamed as anything..



Male chauvinism seems to be dominating our society making it the worst ever to be lived in..



ain't we born with shame?..dignity?..self respect and above all respect for others?..for God sake ain't we humans..dont we have sisters..mothers..wives..back home?





Why can't the mindset of people change?..why don't we learn to behave?..why can't we treat others equally as humans?..and finally where the hell is our shame??

Protests will slow down as that wind which ultimately settles down somewhere in the heart of mother earth..these emotions will get wiped out with time but what will remain is the sense of guilt and shame amongst all those who have still that conscience left i themselves..



As we all progress into the new year, i wish to see that SHAME in men inculcated to the highest of levels so that we don’t have to be so open in proclaiming ourselves as the most purest form of human creations!!!

     In all that humility..

      Amidst that shame..

     I have no one to share with..

      no one to blame..

      My childhood teaches me respect..

      My adulthood asks the same..

      As time advances..

     O men..

     where have u lost your shame?

     I AM in your lives..like a shadow..

    I AM  your sister..Ur better half..and the one who brings you forth..

    Why don’t u remember the same??

     I have served u in all that shame..

    open your eyes..open your soul..

   show the world..Humans exist..

     STOP THIS SHAME!!!